CHIZZY AKUDOLU: I’M BATTLING WITH DEPRESSION AGAIN AND THERE’S NOTHING I CAN DO ABOUT IT

CHIZZY AKUDOLU: I’M BATTLING WITH DEPRESSION AGAIN AND THERE’S NOTHING I CAN DO ABOUT IT

CHIZZY AKUDOLU: I'M BATTLING WITH DEPRESSION AGAIN AND THERE'S NOTHING I CAN DO ABOUT IT

The Holby City actress and Strictly Come Dancing star opens up to Gabrielle Fagan about her struggles with mental health.

 
Chizzy Akudolu is putting a characteristically brave face on, but the
former Holby City star – whose bubbly, positive personality won over the
public when she competed on Strictly Come Dancing last year – is
currently battling with depression.
 
“The ‘black dog’ of depression has come back. It’s come out of the blue,
there’s no apparent reason for it. I guess it is what it is, it comes to
stay and there’s nothing I can do about it until it leaves,” says
Chizzy, who revealed her struggle with the condition last summer – just
after she quit her role as heart surgeon Mo Effanga on medical drama
Holby City.
 
She first experienced depression in 2014 but said she used her TV role
of jokey, bubbly Mo as a “mask” to conceal what she was going through
for more than a year. This time she’s tweeted the news to her 40,000
followers that she’s suffering it again.
 
“I understand people might be shocked that I have [depression] because
I’m naturally a very happy person,  just as I appear. I don’t put that
on… but every now and then I have this thing – depression – which
makes me less happy.
 
“By being open about it, I hope I help people realise that they’re not
alone in going through this. My depression first came on in the middle
of Holby, when I was at my happiest, so it doesn’t always relate to
what’s going in your life. I worked and carried on throughout, but it
was tough.
 
“This time around, I’d had a lovely time the day before my depression
came back, meeting up with my old co-star Ben Hull [obstetrician Mr T]
and reminiscing about old times. Then bang – I woke up the next day and
it was there. But there is help out there and I’m having therapy.”
 
It’s all part of the effort the 44-year-old will put in this year to
work on herself and her fitness – partly triggered by Strictly. Chizzy,
who danced with Pasha Kovalev, won admiration for her upfront honesty
when she had to adjust her hair weave during an energetic foxtrot and
proclaimed, ‘Sorry to all the black women watching!’, but was voted off
in the first round.
 
It dashed her dream of losing weight on the show and “transforming her
body”.
 
“I’m not going to lie, I’m still sad that I couldn’t go further on the
show. It was a massive confidence boost that they chose me and it felt
like, ‘Ooh, I’m playing with the big boys now’. I was having an amazing
time and hoped to lose loads of weight, but I was unlucky – I injured my
knee before the first live show and ended up on crutches. I had to have
my knee strapped while I danced. That didn’t help.”
 
“I made a resolution though, while on the show, to really work on my
fitness when I came out. Feeling out of breath when I danced made me
realise how much I need to change, otherwise the older I get, the harder
it will become. I used to do karate and workout, but I’ve let it all
slip. “
 
She feels empathy for others trying to lose weight. “I lost half a stone
on Strictly, but I’ve put it back on. It’s such a vicious circle when
you’re overweight, because it’s so hard to lose it. You just think,
‘What’s the point?’ and end up eating the wrong stuff – for me, it’s
takeaways and crisps.
 
“Then you feel bad for letting yourself down, which hits your
self-esteem and you eat more to cheer yourself up!  I don’t even want to
get slim, I’d just like a powerful body, like tennis player Serena
Williams.”
 
The insecure life of an actor, she says, can play a part in triggering
stress and undermining her dieting efforts, but despite that, she rules
out a permanent return to Holby City.
 
“I miss it and, every now and again, think I’d like to go back for one
or two episodes – but going back full-time isn’t right for me now. It
would be the safe thing to do, but I need to take a few risks to further
my career.”
 
Prior to joining Holby City in May 2012, Chizzy starred on both screen
and stage, with notable appearances in EastEnders, Green Wing, The
Inbetweeners and a semi-regular role on Channel 4’s Campus.
 
Recently, it was revealed that Chizzy, who’s currently single, was
married to Henry Anang, a computer engineer who alleged she’d put her
career before their marriage, leading to their break up in 2000.
 
“I was shocked he talked about me and, to be honest, I don’t want to
give him any more air time. That was something in the past,” says
Chizzy. ” I don’t think my career has stopped me from being with
somebody – I just haven’t met the right person. I have a brilliant life
and I want to continue to be happy and spread joy. I’d like to adopt a
child at some point. I’ve got projects I’m looking forward to and think
the future will be exciting.”
Chizzy Akudolu who is supporting St Mungo’s Woolly Hat Day 2018 on January 26 to raise money to help the homeless. Picture credit Nicky Johnston/St Mungo's/PA Photo/Handout.
Chizzy Akudolu at the Jumanji: Welcome to the Jungle Premiere held in London in 2017. Picture credit s Ian West/PA Photo/Handout.
Chizzy Akudolu attending The Pride of Britain Awards 2017. See PA Feature WELLBEING Chizzy Akudolu. Picture credit Ian West/PA Photo/Handout.

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